So, it was my every intention to post God's awesomeness in chronological order. However, there is a a change in the wind, and my life goal has appeared to shift. Hold your horses! I believe that it is for the best.
Let me start from this past May. It was the end of the semester at Western Illinois University, and four major things happened.These four things led to my life changing, in a positive way.
First, I found a church community with which I belonged. I made friends quickly with four amazing women that have not left my side since then. They have even helped my get out of a recent rut that I found myself stranded in.
Secondly, during that month I decided to get re-baptized. I felt that I needed to be fully immersed, and that I had sinned far too much. I needed God back in my life, and I needed Him front and center. Over this past summer, I struggled to put him first because I did not really know how. Sure, I could call on him for help, but I did not know what it meant to do things for the glory of God. Right now, though, I believe that I am where I can honor Him everyday.
Third, during my baptism my boyfriend proposed to me. He, and those four lovely ladies I mentioned previously, planned out the entire thing. It was a complete surprise, and of course I said yes. (This is something I will dedicate a blog post to at a later date.)
Lastly, is my major. For the past five years I have been certain that I would be a teacher. Now what kind of teacher, well, that was always in flux. I am a sophomore in college now, and all of my classes have been preparing me to become a teacher.
Let me tell you, I love children. I love working with and teaching them. However, as my education grew, so did my realization that schools are turning kids into robots. Fellow teachers, you do not have to agree. But, one thing that is for certain is that schools teach to the test, not for academic growth anymore. There are many technicalities that I feel have hindered the education system. As a teacher I would want to be able to inspire my students to think independently. I do not want to make students think the same way as everyone else. If I did that, then nothing would ever change or grow in the world because everyone would have the same thoughts and opinions.
Also, with education, I do not see myself being fulfilled five years down the line. I feel that I would be the teacher that lost her passion.
So, I decided to re-evaluate my life, and today it hit me. When I had decided to go into education, I was not doing things to honor God. I was just finding something that I thought would be a good fit. Honestly, I would be a good teacher. I have the ability to teach, but I do not have the right passion.
I began analyzing things that I did have a passion for, and I discovered something that has been right here all along. Journalism. I know what you are thinking, 'wait, you just said you wanted to honor God, but you are now talking about YOUR passion, not his.' Very good, I am glad you called me out on that. I was not quite finished though. With a degree in journalism, I would also get an emphasis (similar to a minor) in public relations. My goal would be to write for a decent sized company first, you know to create a name for myself. Once I had finished my time there, I would move to working for religious organizations and/or non-profit organizations. This way I can promote the good that they are doing for the kingdom of God.
I am struggling to make a decision because I would have to give up a scholarship, and then pay it back. Tomorrow, 9/18, I will make my decision. I have a meeting with the academic adviser for journalism at 2:30. I am praying for guidance to make the best decision. In the end, I hope that whatever it is I choose, that I will be bringing honor to God.
Thank you all for reading. I hope you enjoyed what you read.
Love,
Jessica
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